okeh... hajimemashoo...

26 oktober 2009.

· hhmmmm.... i've started to read real analysis and so not read but understanding n lot n lots of remembering.... real analysis... really not so real... so hard to understand... im a mathematics student but yet cannot understand the whatsoever this subject meant about... really though lah... im a person who likes to calculate NOT to prove... i dont understand why maths needed to be prove... why 1+1=2 needed to be prove... wawawawa... i really dont like maths in university ... so much proving... so much not understands... better the high school one... much more interesting... but hey... this is the high level of maths rite... so u r good in maths if u survive... im the survivor... hahaha...

· in the mean time... im still watching anime... reducing my tension... so call tension... much tension if u dont understand but need to score lah...i ve alredi in senior year... only 1 sem left to graduate... survive it lily survive... anime... love it .. xpecially bleach, naruto, one piece, gundam, dgray man, kyou kara maou and so on... but i will remember the 1st anime that makes me fall in love with anime... inuyasha... good anime... but it stop without an end... so frustrating... damn it.. penat jer layan.. tp best... hope it will continue on... even after 5 years it has stopped...

· im alone... dont know why i feel alone... dont know how i feel alone... dont know when i feel alone... dont know to who i feel alone... dont know whats make me feel alone... suddenly remember the mj song.. >>ure not alone... im here for u... though we far away ... im here to stay... ure not alone... but as long as i ve lptp n anime n songs n movie n drama n family n friends... im not alone rite... then im not alone... but somehow i feel alone... something lost... what is it??? i cant find it... huh... i dont know what is it... is there someone can help me find it??? this is my 1st time to feel alone.. is it bcoz im not so good with my rum8, we dont talk much... really not much.. only salam... excuse me.. were not even share anything... anything happen in our campus life... is it my problem?? or her?? i dont know... really likes the time im with farah, fadh n nadhirah.. so much fun... so much happiness .. unlike now... so bored... damn bored...

· here ive a club.. friends club... merapu club tm... ive enjoy so much fun with these friends.. thanks guy.. so ... ive tried to make a video to show our happiness time together.. even though im still an amateur... but ive tried hard enough...n theres still lacking on something here... since movie maker is so damn troublesome... just enjoy the amateur work ... ahahaha.. but b4 we are graduating.. sure will make a better one lah... thanks a lot guys..

· the energy never dies.. ~the e.n.d~

minggu y memenatkan...

this week i got 4 exams to handle... pergh nihongo=2 test, ra=1 and op=1...

yang paling nyakitkan ati is ... test op... baca tak baca sgt buku op... last2 tak der exam... aku gila2 bersyukur... fanah siap suh sujud syukur dlm bilik kuliah*tp aku tak bwat ler*.. kj mmg suka seksa student... nk mampos bc.. punya nk paham... aku kalu nk maki rsa mcm tak hormat plak dah.. tak berkat nanti... adeh... lecturer paling aku nyampah adalah dier... tima kasih krn bwat aku mnyampah...

daku punyalah stadi smpi tak ckp tdo... berguling2 atas katil lagi... mata aku siap jd itam.. punya btahan nk stadi tapi aku masih tewas utk tido... otak jam giler minggu nih.. oleh itu, aku balas dendam dgn balun tdoq dr kul 3 smpi maghrib... solat aku pon terskip... aku baring2 jer... sedar2 dh maghrib... best giler tido... lega otak aku... + mata aku nih.. mmg sakit, dah bersengkang mata nk stadi ... sakit smpi tutup mata pon pedih giler siap blh nangis lagi... tp lps bgn tdo jer.. trus lega... bgs gak tdo nih...

KYOO WA WATASHI NO OTANJOOBI OMEDETTO GOZAIMASU!!!

Dgn bangganya(bangga??)... aku menginjak ke umur 22 tahun secara rasminya pd ari nih... SELASA. 20 OKTOBER 2009. ari yang sama ngan aku lahir... good timing this year ne!!! Dr smlm smpi ke skunk.. penuh aku nyer inbox hp dgn wish bday... aku ingat korg dh lupakan aku... lelebih lg geng semasa sekolah dedulu... jaja+asya+melah+yeong+anis+niza+azida+... ingat gak korg kat minah problemo nih.. (^_^)...

>> Minna, arigatoo gozaimasu...

>> Dsini, aku nk dedicatekan tak terkira tima kasih buat parents yang mmbesarkan aku yang degil +ketegaq+panas baran nih smpi lah jd besaq lagu nih..

>>Buat ibu y aku anggap sbg kawan sendiri...y tak penah putus asa + sentiasa ceriakan idupku... x ku lupa jasamu... matipon daku tak mampu mmbls segala penat lelahmu... ibu y sentiasa berada disisi whenever im up or down.. in every single thing in my life... i've once wish n pray to Allah that i would want to die first rather than seeing u kembali ke sisiNya... How could i live without u...

>>Buat ayah yg sentiasa melayan karenah aku y gila2 byk... pantang org len ada benda br mesti aku minta ngan ayah... tp ayah layan jer(haha.. nk kata anak emas ayah xtually)... ayah sbg inspirasiku utk stay fit (ayah seksa aku dulu masa nk msuk kejohanan sukan negeri.. ingat lg.. nk mati aku dibuatya).. tp skang dh tarik diri dr sukan.. aku semakin gendut( sori ayah, dh tak fit dh.. byk lemak.. merata2.. (T_T)..) ayah sentiasa beri motivasi + pemberi semangat... kerana lily ingat lagi org penah kata ayah x abis sekolah tp kawin ngan mak y buat master kat Belgium... status tak sama... tp ayah x marah.. ayah kata itu takdir Allah tetapkan untuk ayah... knapa ayah tak marah??? lily benci manusia tuh smpi skang.. lily benci dia smpi mati!!! dia x layak ckp cm tuh kat ayah... ayah mmg baik... terlalu baik...

>> terima kasih mak n ayah... jasamu mmg dikenang spnjg hayatku... oleh itu... aku mahu dedicate hidupku buat mereka... tanpa ada ikatan dgn manusia bernama suami... aku rela.. utk ibu dan ayahku y selamanya kukasihi...

>>x lupa pd siblings aku y ramai giler nih... 6 org.. akak... suara cm halilintar tp dia baik actually... tp mmg seksa ler kalu skali dier jerit.. 1 kmpung dgr.. haha... abg ammal... lubuk duit n berbelanja aku... dia mmg slalu prabis duit dier blanja kitorg mkn... pizza + dome + len2... haha... ida... dia nih mcm kembar aku... ada aku ade lah dier.. sama2 hapi sama2 marah... gadoh pon sama2... mmg kembar ah tp dia akak aku y byk tolong byk... byk sgt... anati... dia mmg baik... aku minta paper pon dier bwat tp bila mai angin ketegaq dier... pergh... mati kena blasah pon still ketegaq lagi.. last skali .. miah... anak bongsu... byk karenah.. suma nk.. mcm2 dia nk... mesti kena tunaikan... adeh... tp die + abg aku adalah pelawak kat umah... skali ade jer dowg .. pecah umah aku...hahaha... thanks a lot guys... u make me feel happy all the time... syukur ke hadrat Ilahi aku dikurniakan famili y happening cm nih... alhamdulillah....

>>hahaha... emo.. emo... coretan ini untuk peringatan kpd diriku y slalu melupakan jasa2 insan tersayang...

aDvanCed in FYP...

hhmmmm... tak per lah.. advanced pon advanced lah... asal buat menatang nih dpt A++++++..

aku n nanae nyer fyp susah nyer.. bebdk len n dr. sendiri ckp susah... tp nanae paling susah ler..

goh y slalu g btanya kat dr pon pening dgn fyp dier pas2 dr pon ckp y dier punya senang drpd kitorg cmnalah dia x blh paham...

>>dr. yang senang pon chin x paham, kami y susah lg lah x paham... wawawwa...(nanae.. nangis ngan aku skali...)

p/s: buatlah fyp dgn sepenuh hati... (pehallah aku pilih method y susah nih->kena advanced plak tuh.. adeila)

1 st time ckp indon....

alkisahnya... tetiba fanah hulur hp dier suh ckp indon n halau caller tuh.... dgn thp kependingan yg melapau (kali ni kalah nanae).... aku pun mulalah..

>>ekau mau crk sapak?? >> enggak ada ratna dcini>> kamu salah nomborrr>> jgn telepon lagik>> kalu tidak aku repotin polisi>>

(setakat y aku ingat jer lah)..

pergh.. tak thn masa bckp nih... fanah + yuyu berguling2 dpn aku.. jenuh aku thn... (mcm yuyu katakan .. dia siap meniarap kat lantai)...

pastu mamat indon pun berjaya dihalau...

lily>>misi berjaya... wuhuu.. hebat..

p/s: i can do almost anything unexpected things ne!! just know bout it.. hidden talent.. hahaha..

AKU SEMAKIN MARAH DGN FARAH...

aku pun sibuk gak tp aku mmg update life aku kat cni tp makhluk Allah farah tuh mmg tak dgr ckp aku... ni y aku nk g pelangkung dia nih...

aku bg masa kat dia lah... dia byk test, lab report ag.. tak per2... aku bg 4 hari lg.. kalu tak siap dier...

lapar tahap keberuangan....

aku mmg lapar giler skunk nih... dgn 2 hari tak tdo ... punya nk siap kan fyp... otak mmg berfungsi non-stop... mmg makin melaparkan aku... dr kul 7 pm makan ngan merapu club semlm smpi lah skunk... kul 1.18p.m .... dh dkt 18 jam 18 minit aku tak makan aper2... lapar... lapar... lapar...

akhirnya... aku siap gak fyp.. tahap kepeningan dan ketensionan dan kebluran nk siapkan menantang nih mmg x terjangka... thp paradigma > maksimum stress aku penah lalui...

tambah plak op nk bwat intebiu... dia bg 2 minggu bc 1 buku 300 page... pastu dia tanya dlm 10 minit randomly question n jawab dpn dier...

weh!!! aku bkn robot ok!! otak aku bknnye brada tahap iq 150 ke atas.. kalu tak dh masuk ukm, usm dah... giler ah... makin stress.. stresss... strrrrrrrrreeeeeessssssssssssssssssssssss......

p/s: penah ker korg tgk aku stres??

waiting for anime is so bullshitting me...

episode by episode needed me to follow up... so tired lor .. but so addicted... what to do.. adoyai...

more tensions ngan fyp...

tak paham giler... apa yg method nih nk trangkan!!! bengong btol ah.. nek pening aku.. smpi tertidor... bergolek2 aku atas katil.. tp still tak paham gak.. huk eleh.. nyusahkan jer fyp nih.. ni yg aku nk bertukar jdk hulk nih.. (nk jd hulk warna merah lah.. merah kegemaran ku... haha.. hijau shining sgt... )

oleh sbb terlampau stress... mkn tdo aku pon tunggang langgang.. semalam bgn tdo kul 8 pm.. p.m ok!!! lps klas trus booomm!!! sedar2 trus.. > miza ko kat luar ke... nk tmph baagaa... > baagaa apa? > double ayam.. pakcik hepa tau.. arigatoo... > baagaa dh smpi.. : aku dgn thp lapar keberuangan pon trus lompat panjat bilik miza... pergh .. yokatta!! ada gak dinner... haha... thanks miza...

p/s: benci nyer buat fyp!!!

hell day...

what the hell day.... im tired with assignment... bullshit assignment.. what the heck...

tired with grouping... tak bwat keja lgsg.. dok tepi jd translator skit pastu .. diam... tgk2.. main facebook... pastu suh present dpn kj pon dok diam.. babi btol!!! ni aku nk marah...

aku rushing print, burn suma siap aku y edit n taip dier ngan kadar babi thap tinggi pon blh dok diam.... im totally mad with her... dont think that we are goin to make another grouping again...

ceh.!!!!

i know shes clever dont think ure clever u dont have to do anything... G MATILAH KO!!!

when i know the assignment has to remake... i feel like wanna cry.. i spend hell of my time on this ... and has to remake... im goin to die sooner or later.... but with this .. my dying day will come more faster...

im in hell day... dont messup with me today!!!!

hell day...

TemPuRa No TaMe Ni...

ada gaya yakuza tak???ngeh3...
konon yakuza ah tuh... tapi happi nih mmg cantik...
wuhuuuu... yakuza ngorat awek ....
memori with sensee...
tak lupa nk tangkap gmbr MERAPU CLUB TM... wajib bgmbr skali.. nanae jer tak der...

preparation y thp dewa last minit.... tapi still blh menang no. 5.. patut no. 4... slack tang mana tah.. no. 4 tuh x bgs lgsg... slide jer bgs.. lakonan hampeh... tp still bersyukur menang... last minit weh.. kalu bwat btol2.. mesti menang... ahaha..

pastu.. dh blakon pon pakai yukata n happi... apalagi bergmbr sakan ah kitorg... hepi time...

*kitorg lah penulis skrip, editor, director, producer, backstage man, onstage man , actress , actor dsbgnya* oleh itu nasihat ku, kalu nk blakon cr lah group y blh beri sokongan dan lbh baik geng kita sendiri*

- 2 hari berturut2 berlakon ternyata berbaloi....

HaRi Raya Di Rumah..

tahun nih, famili aku tak berziarah sgt... raya pertama jer.. masjid > kubur tok sblh mak n ayah > abang ayah > umah.... mmglah tak mrayau truk sgt cam dulu tp... pergh yang teruknya org dtg umah aku... mcm nk halau jer balik... ramai giler... siap beli ais 2 plastik besar cm restoran tempah tuh... aku nih bkn rajin nk mlayan org... redha jer lah...

pakai tudung baru... pengaruh kakak aku.. cit!!!